tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43605334767047639692024-03-13T12:06:41.108-07:00Katee's Master Key Experiencekateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-53112978062809241532019-03-26T21:14:00.003-07:002019-03-26T21:14:37.232-07:00Commencement MKMMA...We've Only Just Begun<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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If you've been reading my blog through this journey, you may have noticed a crazy thing I do...I have a song for EVERYTHING! Yes, literally everything! It drives my husband crazy! And this evening, I'm thinking about the song by the Carpenters...my momma loved listening to them when I was a little girl.<br />
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So here we are, at the "end" of the course, but just getting started on fully living and enjoying what's left of the "dash"...how many years of your favorite season do you have left? Thinking about the longevity of the Scandinavian women in my family, I will likely be pushing 100. My great-grandmother was 99 when she passed, and my lovely Grandma "Corky" just turned 94 and is in great health. She's planning to be around for many more years, and she's as spry as anyone in their 60s! With that in mind, I easily could have over 50 years left to enjoy my favorite season...SUMMER! (Perfect season for a Yellow, right?)<br />
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In this week's webinar Mark for Go90Grow was discussing "the dash" and had everyone do the exercise of thinking about how many years we have left to enjoy our favorite season. He brought me onto the webby and asked me: "how many years do you have left in your dash?" (40ish), "so you're about..." (40ish), "what is your favorite season? (summer), "why?" (because of family time, vacations, travel, beaches, surf and sun), "how would it feel to have all of the rest of your summers off to have only for vacation and not have to worry about working at all?" (well, I'm a teacher and technically we kind of have summers off already, even though that's when we have conferences and trainings and planning to prep for the next year), "how would you feel if you didn't have to work at all in the summer and could have the whole summer to be on vacation and have the funds to help others to join you on vacations too?" (that would be amazing, of course!). Yes, I have summers "off", but if we don't acquire additional income in the summer (my husband is an educator also), funds are always sparse by August, especially if we take any trips or get annual passes to one of the many amusement park options near us. Living like this for the next 40ish-50ish years is not okay, so I'm working on rectifying the situation so that I can have true health and liberty.<br />
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I'm still working on my DMP revamp. I want to retire from my J.O.B. in the next couple years. I need to be laser focused. The Universe has infinite options, and as a Yellow, deciding which path to take is a challenge. But, as we come to the "end" of the MKMMA course, I have made the decision to continue with the lifetime membership option. I'm excited to see where the road takes me next on this journey of service to others and living the life I was meant to live. And as I said before, "we've only just begun!"<br /><br />____________________________________<br />
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Because I'm always a little corny with my songs for everything, I'm sharing a corny version of the song for you with full lyrics below:<br /><br /><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lMUVKuSJHco" target="_blank">"Grandma wants me to be happy." --Happy Gilmore</a><br />
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<u><b>"We've Only Just Begun"</b></u><br />
We've only just begun to live<br />
White lace and promises<br />
A kiss for luck and we're on our way<br />
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Before the rising sun, we fly<br />
So many roads to choose<br />
We'll start out walking and learn to run<br />
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Sharing horizons that are new to us<br />
Watching the signs along the way<br />
Talking it over, just the two of us<br />
Working together day by day<br />
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And when evening comes, we smile<br />
So much of life ahead<br />
We'll find a place where there's room to grow<br />
And yes, we've just begun<br />
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(Songwriters: Roger S. Nichols/Paul H. Williams)<br />
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<br />kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-67400972034164975202019-03-18T08:24:00.002-07:002019-03-18T08:26:20.468-07:00Week 24 MKMMA...You're The Sunflower, I Think Your Love Would Be Too Much<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i>All of the answers are in nature...by simply doing what you're designed to do, something magnificent happens. </i><br />
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<i>The only barometer that you have is the heart. When you spot your flower, you can't let anything get in your way. Being true to your divine spark is effortless.</i><br />
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<i>There's a difference between looking for the truth in order to validate yourself, and seeking the truth.</i><br />
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What is my truth? That is the ultimate question that needs an answer.<br />
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As this journey comes to a turning point, I am excited to move into the future with focus and determination. I've begun the Go90Grow course so that I can begin to build residual income with my Unfranchise, and with that I'm looking again at my DMP and restarting the Mental Diet...this time for 14 days! I'm making new changes in my DMP with more of a laser focus on dates and specifics. As I am rewriting, I am getting new insight in where to start with some things that were already on my DMP through the MKMMA experience. (My first children't book for example, focusing on the Mental Diet, I've already reached out to a friend who has written books and even illustrated children's books!)<br />
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So, have I spotted my flower? Yes! The love I have for children in my community (and beyond) who are facing challenges out of their control has sparked the drive behind my DMP. Yes, I want financial and time freedom for myself...to travel and spend time with my family and enjoy life...and I want true health: physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually...which will always be an ongoing focus. But those are the perks of doing what I love, which is helping children to know that they have a future worth fighting for and they can be in charge of their thinking and finding their dharma.<br />
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Have you found your flower, or are you still searching?<br />
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I've had a busy week with a school yearbook deadline, so I haven't been as focused this week on the Master Keys as I would like. <br />
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But remember this and don't ever forget, we were all meant to shine as children do...<br />
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“OUR DEEPEST FEAR IS NOT THAT WE ARE INADEQUATE. OUR DEEPEST FEAR IS THAT WE ARE POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE. IT IS OUR LIGHT, NOT OUR DARKNESS, THAT MOST FRIGHTENS US. YOUR PLAYING SMALL DOES NOT SERVE THE WORLD. THERE IS NOTHING ENLIGHTENED ABOUT SHRINKING SO THAT OTHER PEOPLE WON'T FEEL INSECURE AROUND YOU. WE WERE ALL MEANT TO SHINE AS CHILDREN DO. IT'S NOT JUST IN SOME OF US; IT IS IN EVERYONE. AND AS WE LET OUR OWN LIGHTS SHINE, WE UNCONSCIOUSLY GIVE OTHER PEOPLE PERMISSION TO DO THE SAME. AS WE ARE LIBERATED FROM OUR OWN FEAR, OUR PRESENCE AUTOMATICALLY LIBERATES OTHERS.” -- MARIANNE WILLIAMSON<br />
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kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-10336300817562823062019-03-07T11:57:00.000-08:002019-03-17T12:14:50.226-07:00MKMMA Week 22a...The Sound Of Silence<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjuCTMSttN1EkVc2JXA4YhqJyb_SicYGybTH4j9JpJnNTWGoBG6v2rfYoGgil9zntn1_aRINJSjzCWNAFQH8vOQZfT48Y5rZdN3hfTcLq3-uZ1T4cxf-gZ4jZWd7YkyGDTp5vVE7D6CcPW/s1600/Screen+Shot+2019-03-17+at+2.53.26+PM.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="217" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjuCTMSttN1EkVc2JXA4YhqJyb_SicYGybTH4j9JpJnNTWGoBG6v2rfYoGgil9zntn1_aRINJSjzCWNAFQH8vOQZfT48Y5rZdN3hfTcLq3-uZ1T4cxf-gZ4jZWd7YkyGDTp5vVE7D6CcPW/s400/Screen+Shot+2019-03-17+at+2.53.26+PM.png" width="400" /></a></div><br />
I haven't had the chance to take 24+ hours of silence yet, but this newer version of the old Simon & Garfunkel song, sung by Disturbed, blew my mind. "The vision that was planted in my brain still remains within the sound of silence."<br />
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<a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9Dg-g7t2l4" target="_blank">Listen to this as you read the lyrics...</a><br />
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Hello darkness, my old friend<br />
I've come to talk with you again<br />
Because a vision softly creeping<br />
Left its seeds while I was sleeping<br />
And the vision that was planted in my brain<br />
Still remains<br />
Within the sound of silence<br />
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In restless dreams I walked alone<br />
Narrow streets of cobblestone<br />
'Neath the halo of a street lamp<br />
I turned my collar to the cold and damp<br />
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light<br />
That split the night<br />
And touched the sound of silence<br />
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And in the naked light I saw<br />
Ten thousand people, maybe more<br />
People talking without speaking<br />
People hearing without listening<br />
People writing songs that voices never share<br />
And no one dared<br />
Disturb the sound of silence<br />
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"Fools, " said I, "You do not know<br />
Silence, like a cancer, grows<br />
Hear my words that I might teach you<br />
Take my arms that I might reach you"<br />
But my words, like silent raindrops fell<br />
And echoed in the wells, of silence<br />
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And the people bowed and prayed<br />
To the neon god they made<br />
And the sign flashed out its warning<br />
In the words that it was forming<br />
And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls<br />
And tenement halls"<br />
And whispered in the sounds of silencekateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-51550909267410777672019-03-01T11:37:00.000-08:002019-03-17T12:02:52.503-07:00MKMMA Week 22...Know Your Role<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgoDZ4R1_4lAQVIzEwEH7SKd-cOsAdaBhhrXvuRLSf79sBr_HUqUDRZ3cpxZOk7IOukRWESSgVPTRSU6SZlDnqcnDtAFV39-2k3Rg7VvMkFwE6JEd7-u2VO-xLbcJCc7MiypTNtkWIl9dhw/s1600/tomhanks1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="210" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgoDZ4R1_4lAQVIzEwEH7SKd-cOsAdaBhhrXvuRLSf79sBr_HUqUDRZ3cpxZOk7IOukRWESSgVPTRSU6SZlDnqcnDtAFV39-2k3Rg7VvMkFwE6JEd7-u2VO-xLbcJCc7MiypTNtkWIl9dhw/s400/tomhanks1.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><br />
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Masks and roles...I totally got it this week. Several years ago, I had a major identity crisis. Looking back it seems really silly, but it was such a struggle at the time.<br />
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When I was in high school, I went to a "missions conference" with my church youth group...one of those "conferences" where all they did was tell you everything you were doing wrong in your life and that the only way to do the right thing with your life was to "surrender your life" to missions. Well, I had a conundrum with that calling...I couldn't become a missionary, according to them, because I am a female. So, I "had" to find a man to become my husband and that man needed to be "called into ministry" because I was not allowed to do that on my own. This was the beginning of what I now refer to as "the great brainwashing" of my life. I ended up going to a private Christian university and going deep in debt with student loans, in order to "obey God" and find a man to marry so I could be a "helpmate" to this man in ministry.<br />
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Thank goodness I met and married my husband! While we were dating, we had a conversation where he asked me how I would support myself if something ever happened to my husband (whoever that would be in the future, we weren't very serious yet). I had chosen the major of "Christian Education" so that I could be a good Sunday School teacher and pastor or missionary's wife...yes, I know, lame. After that conversation I was empowered to be myself again, I knew that I wanted to work with children and decided to major in nursing and become a NICU or pediatric nurse. Over the course of time and due to some personal struggles outside of school, I ended up changing my major to Elementary Education, but eventually ended up getting my B.S. in Psychology, with an Elementary Ed. Teaching Certificate.<br />
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For over 15 years of our marriage, my husband was a youth pastor. Because of the mindset from my high school days, I really embraced the role of "youth pastor's wife." My husband was really great about making sure that I only did things that I wanted to do to help, not to allow others to push their expectations on my or ever let me feel obligated to do anything that I didn't want to do. But I still embraced that role, it was who I was...until it wasn't. When I was pregnant with my youngest, my husband resigned from his last position in ministry. I had an existential crisis...yes, I was a teacher, but I had put too much pride in my role as a youth pastor's wife and I was crushed. I had a literal meltdown, which I will partially blame on pregnancy hormones.<br />
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Now looking back, I'm so glad that life happened and we moved on into the unknown. Life has been good over the last 10 years and just keeps getting better. There are so many amazing things that await when we get out of our comfort zone, letting go of the comfort we find in the familiar, even if it is fraught with suffering or negativity.<br />
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I'm looking forward to the many things that await as I continue to move out of the comfort zone and into the unknown yet again. What I do know for sure? That my role is to be me, not to emulate anyone else. When I grow up, I want to be ME!kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-35497985868626200992019-02-22T10:53:00.000-08:002019-03-17T11:38:03.706-07:00MKMMA Week 21...Use Your Tools<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9ATChWQrKfhwFEix6XT3Yoc-Yzj8aFQn2yNgEfHJhEtHLJZf9qsSmApQ8RTYUCj1xzciNM5j15CPBMrS49JjaJ02Vz0ztq3LLZ8EIvEbIOjQmq-8ni53HOHmBOMdRnFcT59NFR4baq80U/s1600/images.jpg" imageanchor="1"><img border="0" height="266" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9ATChWQrKfhwFEix6XT3Yoc-Yzj8aFQn2yNgEfHJhEtHLJZf9qsSmApQ8RTYUCj1xzciNM5j15CPBMrS49JjaJ02Vz0ztq3LLZ8EIvEbIOjQmq-8ni53HOHmBOMdRnFcT59NFR4baq80U/s400/images.jpg" width="400" /></a><br />
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Take the negative roadblocks of guilt, anger, hurt feelings, fear and unworthiness, and use them as tools for good. Sounds crazy right? As I went through the exercises of taking something negative and turning it into a tool to use for my benefit, a couple of things came up.<br />
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First of all, lack mindset...it's a way of thinking that I have been exposed for most of my life and I see my children (two adults, one preteen) erring in that way of thinking often. I have been using it lately as a conversation starter and we have had great discussions about other ways to look at things when they say something that has a lack bent to it. I grew up in poverty, but my mom had a great way of making sure that we had lots of opportunities to learn and experience things that would be considered to be out of the realm of possibility for most people in poverty. I had dance lessons when I was young (even performed in a ballet with "real" ballerinas), learned to play the piano and flute, had art lessons, was involved in every sport possible in our community and school, and participated in 4H and Girl Scouts. And because Mom was an English major in college and a newspaper editor, I had opportunities to help sell newspaper ads (cold call phone skills as well as face-to-face sales), proofread articles and text, and learn how to develop photos in a dark room. In high school I was on the yearbook staff, and as a teacher I have been the chair of the yearbook committee for the past 4 years. (This is actually something I was going to give up after this school year because it doesn't fit in my DMP, but I realized recently, as I was struggling with getting cooperation from others to submit work and running up against deadlines, that I have to do it for one more year. My son has one more year in elementary school and I want to finish out his elementary experience with one more year of being in charge of the yearbook...of course my administrators laughed when I told them I was going to quit and then realized that I "had" to do it one more year. I'm sure they're thrilled because since I've taken over the committee, we have had some amazing results with the outcome of our yearbook.)<br />
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The second big take away was fear and unworthiness. This is something that I have allowed to rule my life too much. I have a tendency to procrastinate because of these two things. Because of the lessons I've learned in this course, I am in a much better place when it comes to these. I don't always "do it now" but I do more often. I am nature's greatest miracle! I have nothing to fear and I am worthy of everything that is good!<br />
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I can be what I will to be.kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-77799100764660497622019-02-16T11:03:00.002-08:002019-02-16T11:03:25.791-08:00MKMMA Week 20...you are meant for so much more...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Don't die with the music of your soul unplayed...<br />
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There's this thing where you know you were meant to do more than what you're doing now. Even if what you're already doing is amazing and worthy of your time, you still feel that pull to tweak things. But then life happens and time goes by and you get comfortable. Things are familiar, not perfect and not amazing, but you know the basics of how and where things are heading. You've found yourself stuck in the comfort zone!<br />
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Getting out of the comfort zone is scary and unknown, but we were meant for so much more than this!<br />
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"Fumbling his confidence<br />
And wondering why the world has passed him by<br />
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments<br />
And failed attempts to fly<br />
We were meant for so much more than this<br />
Have we lost ourselves?<br />
Somewhere we live inside."<br />
--Switchfoot "Meant to Live"<br />
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Find your path and follow your compass. It will lead you out of your comfort zone and into the great unknown of the future you!<br />
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kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-14965847519872573242019-02-05T09:54:00.002-08:002019-02-05T10:02:44.214-08:00Week 19 MKMMA...I Don't Belong Here...<br />
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Several weeks into this process I met another Tribe member for coffee. After a discussion about all kinds other things she asked me "why" I was taking this course and I had no idea why honestly, I can't even remember what I answered. I've spent time since then contemplating that question and still didn't come up a great answer. I didn't take it to build my business or for any of the reasons probably most people take it. I was already on the email list somehow, and then my business partner was also sending the invites to join the course. I figured, why not? It's free to try it out and what do I have to lose? I've been on a journey of changing my mindset for several years, but nothing had really "stuck" and I didn't realize that this was going to lead me in that direction. I had no "reason" specifically to take it...it ended up being much more than I bargained for in so many ways...lots of time and energy that I wasn't prepared to invest, infringing upon my comfortable mediocrity, challenging the funk that I found myself in after two very stressful years of dealing with overcoming some major life curveballs. Even after going through the process, and yes missing some reads and sits here and there, and seeing and feeling the great changes that are possible (with still so much more to learn and growth to do), I sometimes have felt like an imposter...trying to "belong" in this course, struggling to make changes, answering the call of the "hero's journey" and I've felt so inadequate.<br />
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Don't get me wrong, I am immensely grateful for this course and all of the growth and experiences that have happened. I absolutely know that this process is changing me and helping me become the person I am supposed to become. So when I was watching the Week 19 video with the Ted Talk with Amy Cuddy, I teared up when she was talking about her student. So many times I've felt so out of place and unworthy of who I want to become, who I know I can become. That cement is thick and sticks and it's such a challenge to get off!<br />
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Awhile back my hubby made a meme of me as Wonder Woman...<br />
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It was the Mother's Day that we spent focused on and taking care of his mother, bringing her home from rehab after a broken leg, and spending that whole weekend building a ramp to her house so she could come home. When I fell from a ladder twenty months ago, he bought me a Wonder Woman shirt and a POP! toy figure. A good friend sent me a Wonder Woman action figure as a get well gift. I know that there are people in my life who view me as a Wonder Woman...I want to become the Wonder Woman that I know I am meant to be!<br />
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I love the "Wonder Woman" stance for a power pose! I can do that! And when I do? I feel so marvelous! So, I will "fake it until I become it" and become the person that I am supposed to be! If you're feeling the same way, just try it. It's quite incredible!<br />
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Sidenote: Not only I am going to start doing this exercise for myself on a daily basis, I'm also going to teach my 2nd graders to feel more empowered and powerful with daily 2-minute "Superhero" poses! Stay tuned, I'll let you know how it goes!kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-47660925235584732922019-01-30T17:57:00.000-08:002019-01-30T17:57:06.917-08:00Week 18 MKMMA...Sell yourself<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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"The greatest sale in the world is to sell yourself to you."<br />
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Last week I wasn't able to listen to the course webinar until later in the week and then every time I would try to listen to it, I would get interrupted and unable finish. After today's webinar, I took the time to focus on catching up so that I wouldn't start the new week from behind and wow, the end of the "hero's journey" webinar was amazing!<br />
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Because I kept getting interrupted, I also didn't catch the assignment to send an email to answer the question about the "Greatest Salesman" so I didn't have the opportunity to ponder the answer before finding out what it was. But it was still quite profound! Circling back to last week's webinar is an important piece of the puzzle for me to move on into Week 18 properly. What I had been convinced of about myself was not who I am but what I had endured. Yes, knowing where we come from and what we have been through is important to an extent, but that doesn't need to define everything about us as we move forward in life if we are to be happy and successful. So when the question of the week came up "What am I pretending not to know?" there were a lot of possible answers that arose (and I didn't like most of them). I'm so glad that we can move on to "What would the person I intend to become do next?" Now we can take what we were pretending not to know and change the script as we think about how the person we intend to be would respond in every situation.<br />
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There's a much better future awaiting when we change the questions and our perceptions!<br />
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<br />kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-17237266794689283522019-01-26T07:03:00.002-08:002019-01-26T07:03:23.998-08:00Week 17HJ MKMMA...Curious Adventurer...Aimee Mullins' Ted Talk was phenomenal! As a teacher, I am all too familiar with the conundrum of letting kids explore and be curious but also being stuck in a place where we also worry about working within "the system" that tries to teach kids what "society expects". I love that she allowed the children to come in and explore her legs with no adults allowed and the amazing conversations and learning that took place in that experience for the children (and for her too)! Allowing them to ask questions and use their imagination to learn and grow...which is intrinsic to all children.<br />
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There are so many times, just this year, I've joked with my teacher team about how we want to put "Do Not Cross" police tape on our doors and keep the "adults" out...because in a public, Title 1, low performing school we have extra "support"...which many times feels less supportive and more as if it takes away from all of the fun that learning can be, because of the added "to do" list of "all the things". The best lessons that get the most engagement from my students are the lessons that allow them to ask questions and explore new ideas. We are currently working on a grade-wide STEM Fair project with popcorn as the focus. My students have come up with some of the best questions and ideas about what makes popcorn pop and so much enthusiasm about this project, it was refreshing to see the joy that curiosity brings. They were all so excited to talk about popcorn, it was amazing!<br />
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So how do we, as adults, get back to that childlike curious adventurer? I love that Aimee had the following insights which can be applied to so many areas of life: The conversation is no longer about overcoming deficiencies, it's a conversation about potential...no longer a conversation about loss, but a conversation about the power to create whatever they want to create, design from a place of empowerment. Understanding our collective humanity, we can discover the full potential in our humanity, we need to celebrate those heartbreaking strengths and glorious disabilities that we all have. "It is our humanity and all of the potential in it that makes us beautiful."<br />
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Mark's words also really stuck with me:<br />
*Pure potentiality.<br />
*You are here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow.<br />
*That curious adventurer is not self-conscious at all.<br />
*There are no common people. There is greatness in all of us. The world has a need for your gift!<br />
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*Get off the "circumstances" that are holding you back from the life that you desire! The real heroes journey is finding your authentic self!<br />
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I just love that this course focuses on our true selves. We take the color test at the beginning of the course to identify who we truly are according to how we innately were as children. This was such a mind-blowing concept for me and I am amazed at how much I am growing back into the person that I was as a child...the person who wants to grow and find out who I really am and what I am meant to do.<br />
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There's a song that I loved as a child, which I haven't thought of for years. But it came to mind over and over this week after listening to the webinar and it is true for all of us...<br />
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"I am a promise. I am a possibility. I am a promise with a capital "P". I am a great big bundle of potentiality."<br />
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I am on a journey to become the curious adventurer that I was meant to be and I love it!<br />
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"I can be what I will to be."<br />
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Will (n.) 4 a: mental powers manifested as wishing, choosing, desiring or intending<br />
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The conundrum of me...I am strong willed. Sometimes that is helpful, sometimes not so much. Just as I told my Tribe on our Zoom call, I have a tendency to "believe it when I see it" and within that conversation I mentioned how I would love to go back and start from the beginning and do a better job at following all of the pieces because I know I'd be much further along in this journey...and then that was addressed in the Webinar. Oops! Ha!<br />
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The question is, will I, or won't I? I have to admit that keeping up with every little piece of the MKE has been challenging, but I have been hanging in there, stepping up the consistency, and seeing the changes within. I have decided to leave the majority of my job work at work, and the first week back for the new school semester I did! Just making that big change (I used to bring home a lot!) has given me much more time to focus on things that are more important to the future me.<br />
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What do I will to be? I will to be whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, and happy. So...I AM whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving harmonious, and happy...because I can be what I will to be!<br />
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Dear Katee,<br />
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I am giving you permission to be whole, perfect strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and extremely happy! Go for it and DO IT NOW!<br />
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Love,<br />
Kateekateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-83450362063686508842019-01-12T07:04:00.001-08:002019-01-12T07:24:46.802-08:00Week 16 MKMMA...Kindness Matters<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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So many acts of kindness observed this week...it was refreshing to watch the world through the eyes of looking for kindness, especially in my 2nd grade classroom. 7 & 8 year-olds are amazing, especially when you are purposefully looking for the positives. We did a "word goal" activity and every child put something about being kind and helping others in their action steps, even those who chose reading wan to help friends become better readers!<br />
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We're driving through Tampa this morning, listening to music on our way to our son's soccer game. My husband put on some music and Jars of Clay was playing. The song "Like A Child" came on and it reminded me of all that we're learning about getting back who we were as children before the world jaded us and changed our outlook...and in the middle of the song, you hear some little girls say "Be kind. One to the other"<br />
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That says it all.kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-56918005307382350502019-01-04T03:09:00.000-08:002019-01-13T20:17:18.675-08:00Week 15 MKMMA...Word!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The word that stands out to me this week as I'm working through my lessons, sits and reading is <i>HARMONY</i>. </div>
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For several years I've been on a quest to replace negative thoughts with positive ones, thinking and speaking only that which benefits and encourages and grows. I have improved, even though many times I've missed the mark. The most important thing is persistence until there is triumph. </div>
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Everything that grabs my attention lately focuses on positivity...mentally, of course, but also the relevance of living and working in a positive environment. </div>
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I picked "well-organized" as my focus this week and I'm seeing it everywhere. Since I'm on Winter Break, I've been organizing things at home and working on changing the environment of our home into a more calming, positive space. As I make changes, I see those around me following suit, tidying up without being asked and just enjoying being in the presence of each other in a way we haven't in awhile because we have allowed busy and hectic to take over our lifestyle in recent years. Next week I'm hoping to bring more of this positivity, calm and harmony into my classroom as we begin the second semester of 2nd grade. Thankfully Monday is a planning day and I can implement some new ideas to help facilitate change.</div>
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As I enter this new year, everything that I am working on is coming together in harmony, and boy, is it sweet!</div>
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<i>Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.</i></div>
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kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-57181350888260922082018-12-29T21:30:00.000-08:002018-12-30T04:58:55.787-08:00Week 14 MKMMA...Mirror, MirrorI love the movie Cool Runnings and watching it with again with a new perspective was amazing!<br />
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"Well, you want to know what I see? I see pride! I see power! I see a bad-ass mother who don't take no crap off of nobody!"<br />
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"But it's not about what I see, it's about what you see. Now look in this mirror and tell me again what you see."kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-45399556987603162762018-12-26T07:34:00.000-08:002018-12-30T04:36:37.939-08:00Week 13 MKMMA...A GiftNARC...oh my! Throw my goals, dreams, and purpose for my life in the trash??? Oh no! I am not a quitter! I will not allow me to get in my way of achieving my DMP. But... (stop there, right?!?!?) I fell into the "fearful victim" role in the recent past and this week has been a challenge in that area also. Sometime it's easier to allow the old, negative habits and thoughts than to do the work to fight it.<br />
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Staying positive and focused on the law of dual thought, was a challenge...challenging students acting out because "'tis the season"...dealing with unexpected waves of grief as the one year anniversary of my sister's death came and went...holiday prep and activities...time to myself (without crashing from exhaustion) was scarce.<br />
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But...(and this is a good "but")...when I finally found the time to go back and listen to this week's webinar, I jumped forward to my convo with the team toward the end and then listened from the beginning again...<br />
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Some quotes ideas that stood out in the after webinar convos...<br />
*I can feel. When it hits harder, feel it. It's a beautiful thing to be able to feel. Not all feelings are beautiful.<br />
*Sometimes all you can do is walk through the darkness to get to the light...and you get to the light.<br />
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The gift is all of the positives that come from going through all of the things on this journey. It's not always easy, sometimes we do want to quit...until we do something drastic like NARC...and then we're more determined to do what needs done. I can't imagine how this week of my life would've gone had I not already been making the positive changes from MKMMA.<br />
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I am grateful for the experiences, they help me learn and grow and become better.<br />
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<br />kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-25706216186624694912018-12-13T00:17:00.000-08:002018-12-15T07:07:50.673-08:00Week 12 MKMMA...Bear Hugs Kettle...Let it go!<br />
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The <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Snn5A-PEDwk" target="_blank">7 Day Mental Diet</a> is continuing to be a challenge, but the story <a href="http://www.goldenkeyministry.com/newsletters/positive-living/bear-hugs-kettle/" target="_blank">"Bear Hugs Kettle"</a> helped to put it into perspective for me! I need to do with my negative thoughts what I tell students who are struggling with dealing with difficult people and behaviors that annoy them... I tell them to channel their "inner Elsa" and "Let it go!" I am noticing a shift in my thinking and perspective, but it's not an easy transition with old habits being hard to break.</div>
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"What of the ordinary troubles that you will have to meet in the office or at home? The answer is, that such things will not affect your diet provided that you do not accept them, by fearing them, by believing them, by being indignant or sad about them, or by giving them any power at all. Any negative condition that duty compels you to handle will not affect your diet. Go to the office, or meet the cares at home, without allowing them to affect you."</div>
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But as Og Mandino states: "I will persist until I succeed. I was not delivered into this world into defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. I am not a sheep waiting to be prodded by my shepherd. I am a lion and I refuse to talk, to walk, to sleep with the sheep. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny. I will persist until I succeed."</div>
kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-24721357157702393252018-12-09T03:41:00.000-08:002018-12-15T07:07:22.862-08:00Week 11 MKMMA...Because I've Gotta Have Faith<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i>What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.<br /><br />
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.<br /><br />
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A common thread throughout the Bible is that when we pray, God will listen. This Master Key course is teaching me to look at things in a new light, while looking through the lens of the truths of the ages. Whatever we desire, think or manifest can take place as long as it is for the greater good of all and not to the detriment of others. I believe that this is why the verse says "the greatest of these is love." If we have love for others, our desires will be to help others and in so doing our plans will prosper.</div>
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I've been searching for the past few years for something that would take all of the core beliefs of my upbringing and manifest them into something that makes sense to me. The pieces are finally coming together for me to realize how so many things fit together like a puzzle. Everything has been jumbled up for so long and now it's all coming together and making sense.</div>
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kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-89108624645608713132018-12-01T09:18:00.000-08:002018-12-09T09:18:35.874-08:00Week 10 MKMMA...Extravagance, Lavishness, Wastefulness...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The Law of Abundance...for so long I have allowed myself to feel unworthy of truly living an abundant life. Somewhere along the way I learned that being extravagant and lavish was a wasteful, bad thing. Honestly, as I type this, my mind goes back to the summer after I graduated high school and an incident that happened just before I left for college.<br />
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I grew up in a home with the family income falling below poverty guidelines. We qualified for free lunches and would sometimes get the surplus cheese and butter. Because my family possessed large excavating and farm equipment, we didn't qualify for food stamps...because we could sell our assets and buy food. (Give a man a fish, don't let him go fishing???)<br />
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Money was scarce and even though all of my friends were wearing ESPRIT, Guess, Swatch, and Gloria Vanderbilt, I wore hand-me-downs and thrift shop finds. (If only I was a child of the 2000s, where thrift store finds have become the rage with all of the hipsters!)<br />
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As is customary, I received several monetary gifts after my graduation. After I purchased all of the necessary items for my dorm, I had some money left over. My university was rather conservative and we had to dress up for almost everything on campus. I went to the mall on the lookout for some nice dresses and skirts and after a few smaller purchases, I decided to peruse Dillard's. I found THE most beautiful dress that I had ever seen and immediately fell in love with it and HAD to have it! Then I looked at the price tag...$124.99! (I had never purchased ANYTHING for over $20 in my life!) I decided to splurge and bought the dress. I was so ecstatic to have such a beautiful dress to take with me to college!<br />
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I went home with my purchases and my mom wanted to see what all I had bought. I was so happy to show her the dress because it was SO perfect! As soon as I showed it to her, I regretted it. Her facial expressions changed so drastically that I knew she didn't approve of the purchase. She was upset that I had "wasted" that much money on one dress and in the heat of the moment of her reaction, she asked me if I thought I was a princess or something? I'm not going to lie, it stung. My elation was gone and now I was angry.<br />
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I always grew up in a frugal family, we always had food on the table, clothes to wear, and our utilities were always on (unless the electricity was out due to weather or the water froze in the winter). My mom made sure that I had well-rounded experiences. I played sports, was involved in 4H, Girl Scouts, Student Council, yearbook, played flute in band, learned piano from my grandmother, took dance and ballet when I was young, and even got to take art classes at the local museum. Many times the things she exposed me to were free, or she won as a prize (art classes, season passes to the local theatre). But she worked hard to make sure that we were always involved and doing things to build character and have experiences.<br />
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As an adult looking back, I'm sure that money was extra tight with my parents needing to drive me 15 hours away from home to college and I didn't even think about the finances of such a trip for them. So I am sure that was part of the reason for her reaction. But it stuck with me for the rest of my adult life. Lesson learned. I needed to be frugal and conservative in my spending, purchasing only the necessities.<br />
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But nature doesn't work that way. Nature IS extravagant, lavish and wasteful in creating. Look at the intricacies of flowers, details of insects, and the grandiosity of the mountains and oceans. Nature doesn't hold back anything. The Norwegian fjords awash in the glow of the northern lights is the epitome of extravagance, lavishness and wastefulness. Nature creates everything with abundance. It doesn't hold back, nothing is done unless it is profuse.<br />
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My mind and visualization needs to follow the example of the extravagance of nature. I can be what I will to be...no holding back, extravagant and lavish.<br />
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*Afterthought...that dress was totally worth the price I paid. I got compliments every time I wore it and it lasted for years!kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-65608038078855068712018-11-24T07:25:00.000-08:002018-12-09T18:12:22.615-08:00Week 9 MKMMA...So, What Do You Think?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnwwHibmSAdvCFOY1qJ0FXcyplJNDg-MEBrvRZMN5mSO8kk_JzsX2LKhQogDYMjIiggbP5YCM0RxrgM1_e0tJv1ki_ph3OEPts3UM0i_ztYy8EJ4yEsGsjZhVZZpeYcNkDa583sJbA8RbZ/s1600/henri-picot-542943-unsplash.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="1067" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnwwHibmSAdvCFOY1qJ0FXcyplJNDg-MEBrvRZMN5mSO8kk_JzsX2LKhQogDYMjIiggbP5YCM0RxrgM1_e0tJv1ki_ph3OEPts3UM0i_ztYy8EJ4yEsGsjZhVZZpeYcNkDa583sJbA8RbZ/s640/henri-picot-542943-unsplash.jpg" width="426" /></a>"Character is not a thing of chance, but it is the result of continued effort."<br />
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Deciding which thoughts I am going to entertain is an ongoing challenge. Rewiring what has been ingrained over the course of an adult lifetime takes work. Choosing to determine my mindset and my reaction to those around me gives me the power, but I have to take control to have the power to choose my thoughts. So...I can be what I will to be and my persistence will pay off.<br />
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<br />kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-16528591250956488482018-11-17T07:00:00.000-08:002018-12-09T07:01:29.895-08:00Week 8 MKMMA...Live For Today<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The other day I saw a post on social media that stuck with me about this very subject, and then I read the above poem. "If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present." </div>
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Making the mindshift into living at peace is the best thing about this journey for me. Making a vision for tomorrow while doing the work to make it happen today!</div>
kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-79417294341200561652018-11-09T03:49:00.002-08:002019-11-10T15:33:31.881-08:00Week 7 MKMMA...tear down that wall<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Regarding "The Seven Day Mental Diet"...I am starting over this morning (Friday...yes, I tried and failed for 3 days straight, though I did make it more than 24 hours the first try.) But that's okay because in closing Emmet Fox cautioned that this diet tends to stir up all sorts of difficulties, seeming as if everything is going wrong at once. Though disconcerting, he says it's "really a good sign. It means things are moving" which is the objective of this exercise.<br>
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Earlier this week I came across a post on Instagram that really struck a chord deep inside my being. I decided to repost it and did get one comment by a friend that she was "shocked" at my last post. But every.single.person. who interacted with the post otherwise, thanked me for sharing and could actually relate to the sentiment of the message. It said: "Unfuck Yourself. Be who you were before all that stuff happened that dimmed your fucking shine." Yes! That is the point of all of this to me! We take a test to find our color based on our childhood personality...and then life happens, learning happens, influences happen...and we've lost our shine and we've gotten FUBAR (fucked up beyond all recognition) of our true selves, the person we really are and were always meant to be, and dimmed our shine.<br>
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So yes, that might come across offensive to some just because of the use of the "F word" but the sentiment is exactly what I needed to see this week. I had a difficult week at work as a teacher, dealing with a lot of stresses that are becoming the norm in schools, and being positive for 7 days has seemed like a daunting task. But I am going to embrace this challenge and when I look at those difficulties I will follow what Og Mandino challenges us to do...<br>
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This week as I read "The Gal in the Glass" (variation posted below) I realized how much we use metaphors about mirrors. Sometimes when we look in the mirror, what we see is what we subconsciously want see because our mind is either overly critical or overly egotistical about ourselves, depending on what it thinks we want to see. <o:p></o:p></div>
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My tendency of looking at myself in recent years has been to worry and make assumptions about what other people see or expect, rather than allowing me to see the woman who is really there. I have allowed myself to come up short of my own hopes and dreams because I have let others' opinions stifle my creativity and plans. I have also come up short because I have become very self deprecating and way too hard on myself...always striving to be perfect, the best, the expert...and especially recently I have missed that mark because of the "life stuff" that I has come along. I allowed injury, illness and grief to change me in ways I dislike and don't recognize myself , and when I look in the mirror thinking about where this road has taken me, I don't like it. I don't like that I allowed myself to get in a funk and negative. <o:p></o:p></div>
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As a child, and even as a young adult, I was always positive thinking, liked who I was even if others didn't, and though childhood threw several extreme challenges my way, I didn't let them define me. I love that this course has begun to chip away the negativity and ugliness that I have allowed myself to be covered in, I'm looking forward to seeing that golden sparkle that I know is under all of this mess! <o:p></o:p></div>
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kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-83885016269347663412018-10-28T00:11:00.000-07:002018-10-28T12:11:54.943-07:00Week 5 MKMMA...opinionated...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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The challenge this week was to have no opinions...don't share them, don't give them when asked unless you're an expert on the subject (as in with your job), and don't think them.</div>
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Wait, what? I'm as opinionated as it gets! Like seriously, this shirt should be mine! (This picture showed up in my FaceBook feed the day after the challenge was given. Perfect!)</div>
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Trying to go through the week without opinions was near impossible for me. I had to stop myself many times...and failed at it just as many times too!</div>
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Especially right now, with local elections happening, I have been asked about voting options and ballot questions...by my adult kids, friends, and even co-workers. I'm not an expert in that area, but people around me know that I do look at everything thoroughly and with an open mind, and even though I am quite opinionated about certain things, my opinion is sought by those who want to know both sides of an issue (amendment questions and such) because sometimes it's hard to decipher which way to vote with the hidden wording and agendas tucked into them. I tried to be concise with facts and not give my opinion on things, but this was a toughie!</div>
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In my house it's hard to have a conversation without giving opinions. We all like to have good discussions and debates on all kinds of subjects, often playing devils' advocate just to get each other thinking...and sometimes just to get under each other's skin...for fun. I know, we're a bit strange, but I love the mental stimulation we get from each other.</div>
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Actually though, it was pretty easy to keep my unsolicited opinions to myself for the most part...except for the one time when I reacted verbally with "well, that's just stupid" after finding out we were having an unexpected, surprise walkthrough at work. (Give me a break here, it was Friday, the week was a hot mess with multiple meetings and interruptions, and we had all felt the ridiculous effect of the full moon quite noticeably!) </div>
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kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-27652436361771878082018-10-21T22:19:00.001-07:002018-10-21T22:19:23.198-07:00Week 4 MKMMA...toughen up buttercup!
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<span style="font-family: 'ArialNarrow'; font-size: 12.000000pt;">I'm late posting this blog because it was a difficult one for me to write, but here it is...<br /><br />"The reason that some cannot do this (</span><span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;">mentally let go of all adverse conditions, such as hatred, anger, worry, jealousy, envy, sorrow,
trouble or disappointment of any kind)</span><span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;"> is because they allow themselves to be controlled by the
emotions instead of by their intellect. But those who will be guided by the intellect will gain the victory."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;">As I've been working through the lessons, this one is the biggest challenge for me. The past 18 months have been the hardest in my life, though none of it has been a cakewalk. I used to be a super positive person, had an easier time of letting go of all of those things listed above, even in the difficult times...but the emotions are still raw and I'm not sure how exactly to fully let them go. I read other blogs of people on this journey and they're all about how great things are going for them and how amazing they feel in this course (even if they're overwhelmed with all of the work)...and I feel as if I'm an outlier at the moment, but hopefully this will help someone else, or at least help me work through this part to move forward in the course (and more importantly, in my life).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;">In June 2017 I fell from a ladder on the second day of my summer break from teaching...I took "take a break" too literally and had seven fractures and three dislocations in my lower back vertebrae and pelvis. I didn't have to have any surgeries or wear braces, but I was in the hospital for over two weeks, used a walker for another month, had to use an electric cart to do my shopping for quite awhile, and went to physical therapy until the end of the year when I stopped because I would have to start over on a new deductible. I'm still dealing with painful issues from that injury, especially in the soft tissue (muscles, tendons, ligaments, fascia, etc.) in that region of my body. The other weird after effect is that if I get startled (over something as small as working in the garage and the door opening unexpectedly when my husband returns from an errand), that "jump" reflex that most of us have includes for me electric shock type jolts from my core out toward my arms and sometimes even my legs. It's truly "shocking" and I feel depleted of energy for quite some time after. </span><span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 16px;">The after effects of that injury isn't the thing that is affecting me most right now, but it was the start of my mental funk. </span><span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 16px;">There are many positives from that situation...most of them are the alternative scenarios that could've happened but didn't...as well as the potential for full recovery at some point. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;">Two and a half years ago I was found by my half sister, who I'd been told about when I was a girl in school during a phone discussion with my father who lived across the country. We were excited to get to know each other, talked on the phone often, connected through FaceBook and had plans to meet...those were put on hold due to my injury as I couldn't sit (travel) for very long at a time. Last December, on the Monday of the last week of school before Christmas break, I received a phone call during school from my niece. (Unheard of, so I took her call.) She was in her car, driving from Kansas City to Columbia, MO to the hospital where my sister had been taken after an incident involving her and a moving vehicle. My sister passed away 5 days later, the last day of school before I began break. (Note: I was teaching Kindergarteners and had to keep it together all of those days of that last "festive" week before they were off for the holidays...talk about tough!) There is still an ongoing homicide investigation into the incident, though we have been told it probably won't come to charges...but we're still hopeful. The positives are that I have been able to meet and visit my sister's kids twice this year and we're building a strong relationship, as well as the fact that my sister was able to save three lives as an organ donor.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;">I'm a "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" and "put on your big girl panties" type of person. Life has challenges, we face them, deal with them, and move on. So I've mostly been doing that, and it was working for me...until it wasn't. Walking through the aisles of my local Hobby Lobby a couple weeks ago hit me like a ton of bricks and I've been dealing with it everywhere I go since...the Christmas decor! I knew the holidays would be tough, but didn't realize how tough. When I went to Kansas City in January for my sister's funeral, we stopped by her home to get some things my niece wanted to have for the funeral. The Christmas tree was still up. It didn't phase me at the time, but something about seeing the decorations in stores now is just hard. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;">This course came at a good time because it's helping me learn to control myself mentally when I feel like so much is out of my control. A friend posted an <a href="https://thepowerofsilence.co/an-open-letter-to-the-woman-who-hasnt-been-herself-lately/?fbclid=IwAR0m6ZkZBtzLgoQRTSSKxnhDTCvEyTrnBencxSbTG6YDoqX9wMjQ01DlP9c" target="_blank">open letter "to the woman who hasn't been herself lately"</a> this past week that really hit home and helped give me hope for getting back to me, the real me...from my childhood like Mark speaks about. "You can rise up like a phoneix from the ashes and remember who you are. Remember your strength, resilience, and worth." She also tells readers to "look deep inside your soul and find your child self. You'll see that you haven't lost yourself."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: ArialNarrow; font-size: 12pt;">So, I'm still looking and I know that with the assignments and insight gained from this course, I'll find her!</span></div>
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kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4360533476704763969.post-90560467138307830812018-10-13T21:54:00.000-07:002018-10-21T22:20:19.155-07:00Week 3 MKMMA...take a step!"Eliminate, therefore, any possible tendency to complain of conditions as they have been, or as they are, because it rests with you to change them and make them what you would like them to be."<br />
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This is a challenge for me. Negative mindset has been more of a norm than positive and this is a hard thing to change!<br />
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This week brought: an unexpected hospital stay of a loved one that turned out fine, the rescue of a baby squirrel, and an upper respiratory cold that forced me to stop and rest.<br />
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Consistency hasn't been my forte this past week, but I'm consistently taking steps to improve.<br />
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"When you find that you are really one with the Infinite power, ...you will have nothing to fear; fear will have been destroyed...."<br />
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I'm working on it!kateebolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13941339132846752103noreply@blogger.com4